Happiest Time in my life. I haven’t been so relieved like today, rightnow. At home, chillin’, watching dramas, MSN, fb-ing, going to shopping, blahblah. It’s all so resting. I’m very thankful for the thanksgiving and the district for the break, except i wouldn’t have enough time to raise my grade up. Whatever, school things are not in my head rightnow. When time comes, I’ll do something. But hopefully everything turns out fine.
So far, I’m enjoying my breakk. just, so far. Had fun with my dear friends, slept the whole day, 2 hrs of bath everyday. But still, i feel very pressured. Loads of homeworks, projects, readings blah blahh. Why is that I can’t feel eased at least once? I blame CORE. Mountains over Mountains, all the shit loads of homeworks during the break, and yet so much else to do and want to do. FUCK YOU CORE. oh well, hopefully I’ll enjoy the rest of my break, HOPEFULLY.
“Inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be understood by someone who really cares. When a person is understood, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world.”— Ed Hird | by withoutyouimnothing (via quote-book)
It’s just how i am. I can’t help myself saying all these questions i have, how i feel, and blah blah. well, those things, you gotta deal with. I understand that you don’t understand what I believe in, but its not that I didn’t put any consideration in what you believe. I’m not trying to push you into anything but you gotta know that when I’m saying these things, it’s not like i could say things easily. It takes courage to let things out about these kind of topics. It’s what I believe and I just want to share my thoughts and feelings with one who actually understands & I want you to understand that I want to do what’s best for you.
These days, i feel like im in the air, floating. i feel empty, not fulfilled.i got no goals to get to and am not happy. I need God back in my life. i dont know what he’s planning on doing but i don’t feel the presence of him in me. I can’t stay like this forever and just depend on worldly things, including a human being. Everytime I realize that things around me is nothing without God because without him, i cannot feel the happiness that i used to feel, that fullness. I realize that i always U turn towards him but tends to get strayed away, always. This is very painful.